December 30, 2008
I am so tired. All the time. I don't feel like doing one thing. No reading, no cooking, no scrapbooking, no photography, no blogging. We have been at the mercy of our winter weather, feet of snow now being melted by buckets of rain which, when coupled with freezing temperatures, turns every surface into a skating rink overnight. We've been stuck in this house together, three of us sick with pretty good bronchial crap, me PMSing and waiting for my new synthetic hormones to kick in, feeling so gloomy and so freaking TIRED.
Whine off. Whew.
We had a lovely, small, quiet Christmas. Santa delivered the coveted MP3 player for Claire and the Pokemon Electivire Action Figure with special foil trading card for Ben. We stayed in our pajamas all day and ate junk food and I took a very long nap in the afternoon. Very Norman Rockwell in our snow-covered farmhouse with a tendril of smoke curling up out of the chimney.
Then "we" lost the Nintendo DS with the new Pokemon Ranger game in it. The house was combed top to bottom. Claire's room even got dusted (gasp!) because we had to clean it to look for the DS. Mark went through all the garbage since Christmas, all the pockets of every coat and inside every shoe and boot. This morning he said we needed to stop being so exotic in our search and go back to the basics because really, where the hell could it have gone? INSIDE the couch. Not under the cushions or beneath it, but inside of it, and it's not a hide-a-bed. Pulled the stapled netting off from underneath and out plunked the DS. Mark left for work with a smile on his face and guess what Ben is doing?
And yes, we really are leaving for Germany in 2 weeks. Just turning off the lights and walking away. And no one is "sprechening" much deutsch around here. The institute (I love calling it that, although I guess I shouldn't giggle about it too much considering my current mental state!) has awarded us a german tutor upon arrival, so that should help in communicating with the german medical system about filling the prescriptions I have to take everyday for the rest of my life and finding a good potato bread that Ben will eat! The rest is just details.
I'm planning to give the blog a little face lift in anticipation of our time in Europe, something along the lines of "Kaydub Does Deutschland" perhaps? Because 2009 is going to be my year, I can feel it in my bones. No more of the torture that was 2008; I'm gonna let it shine.
Happy New Year Y'all.
December 22, 2008
I've finally lost track of accumulated snow. 11 then 4 then 6 then 8 then some more. It's a bunch and the drift on the far side of the pass after Saturday's wind was a bit too much to attempt even with chains on the big rig.
It may sound a bit saccharin but I wouldn't want to be snowed in without my best friend and sweet love, especially since her radio iodine has finally dissipated to french kiss levels.
Claire got to be snowed in with her best friend too, and they have been making the most of the occasion.
December 20, 2008
It was quite the snowy adventure but we made it to Spokane and back home yesterday. We have many inches of snow here, but they have many FEET. It was impressive to say the least. My scan went well; I have a hot spot where my thyroid used to be and two small spots in my sinuses. When I go in for the next RAI scan in six months, they will be able to determine if those hot spots were wiped out by this round of radiation. I began my second hormone pill this morning and am expecting to feel fabulous any time now!
We're laying low and waiting for our next storm to begin later tonight. We are predicted another 3 to 7 inches of snow with 20 mph wind gusts tomorrow. Claire and Mark are in town getting gas for the snow blower and picking up Emily so she can be snowed in with us for a couple of days. It is so beautifully bright out today; the sun is shining in clear blue skies, but I can't even share a picture for fear of searing your eyeballs. Suffice it to say, it's a proverbial winter wonderland and we'll definitely be enjoying a white Christmas.
December 18, 2008
And to our friend Wendy who will be managing the homestead while we're away, we say "hang in there baby, it's not always this way, we promise!" And really, when you change your perspective and look at it in a different way, being snowed in is a gift of time, one that many of us may never have the pleasure of experiencing.
December 15, 2008
We were Sofa King (say it fast) snowed in Sunday. But, it was light and fluffy, just what the snow blower likes. The grader busted through the pass late in the day. Though he didn't linger to make it pretty, it was plenty functional. Bob stopped by with Brian's plow and busted the big drift across the driveway, mostly for fun because I had blown a path through it already. Then we chained her up and busted a path up to the old place so one of his hands could move in. All in all a perfect Sunday, all play and no work!
Here are a few more of the pics if it isn't cold enough at your place to get ya in the spirit of the season. Feels like minus something out there tonight but the stars,,, oh my,,, the stars are wow.
December 13, 2008
Kristi is still amazingly radioactive and winter finally came with a full force blizzard so there really isn't any need to go anywhere.
This is our new Radiation Safety Officer. I have been relieved of my duties by this young upstart. I can't get the counter out of his hands.
This is what it looked like from the door to the studio if the patient sat on the bed. FYI it sounds like somebody is torturing a lot of crickets.
The kids have learned the two most important rules of dealing with radioactivity,, time and distance. Keep time short and distance long. We even spent a little time talking about exponential functions, twice as close is four times the radioactivity. Kristi went to the basement and we were able to track her movements through the floor with the geiger counter. Great fun.
Yup,, that is as close to a foot as we get in half a day around here. This was measured in the open driveway before the wind started. It's legit! By the way the wind is blowing out there I'm sure we will be able to bury a yard stick by morning in the right spot.
The snow is too dry for snowmen and snowballs, but just right for sledding and drifting.
Me and my snow gal spent a lot of time playing. We even got the old snowmobile running and used it to pack down the big run. Bet we have to do it again in the morning,, bummer.
December 11, 2008
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December 5, 2008
And here she is in the thick of it. The beginning orchestra students got a little miracle when, unbeknown to them, their teacher arranged for the high school strings to accompany them on their songs. It was a delight to watch their little eyes light up when they realized that they were making beautiful music. They all sat up a little straighter and prouder. So sweet.
I am home alone today, all day. Ben is at a friend's, Claire at school, and Mark at work. I'm puttering and listening to music fairly loudly, got a fire going and I'm ready to print pictures and work on my December Daily album. I am feeling such a sense of gratitude for each additional day I get to spend without many symptoms. I feel they may be numbered. But my mom is here tomorrow, WOO HOO, and hopefully I can hold out to go cut a Christmas tree on Sunday.
And HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my friend Shawna. Have a great day girl.
December 2, 2008
Both of my brothers called me today. I hardly ever talk to them on the phone and then for both of them to call me in the span of a few hours was delicious. My youngest brother Ray is making plans to spend a couple of months touring Europe while we have a home-base for him from which to foray out in Germany. He is graduating with a BA in History later this month and is doing some worldly exploring before entering Law School. My brother Zach called to share with me some most excellent news about which I'll encourage you to let your imagination wander. Suffice it to say they were both little golden sunbeams for me on this most dreary day.
I picked Ben up from Kindergarten today for the first time in a while and I wish I could paint a picture of the relief and joy on his face when he saw me there. Even though I cannot help what's happening to me, it doesn't keep the "mommy" guilt from descending, especially as we're heading into the holiday season. We're keeping things quiet and minimal around here, but Claire absolutely put her foot down when I told her I wasn't planning on setting up the Christmas village this year, claiming it was her very favorite part of it all. So added to Mark's list of "Honey Do's" is fetch the boxes from the basement, it's decoratin' time!
Loving this right now and hoping to participate. Some angel of a mother-in-law left a little gift certificate for me to our local scrapbook store and I might head there tomorrow after blood tests to purchase a few new goodies. Plus I could use a few hugs.
November 27, 2008
Last night I asked everyone to come up with five things that they were grateful for in anticipation of today. Claire excitedly responded that she had just the perfect project for such an occasion and made little "kits" for all of us to use to put together these cute gratitude turkeys.
May you also take a moment to reflect upon all your gratitudes today. There really is so much for which we can be thankful.
November 26, 2008
Here's my layout for tv/dvd love.
You guys game?
November 24, 2008
Thanks everyone, for all your well-wishes and surprises and love. The surgery and recovery were a lot better that I expected, and although I'm pretty tired, I feel human and fairly happy. However, I have to say that was one of the WORST sore throats I've ever had.
Hope the world is treating you right.
November 21, 2008
November 20, 2008
Well by back in the saddle I mean a tad ornery! She is trying to convince the Doc that she doesn't need to stay and that waiting in the hospital for a blood test they can do in Pullman is ridiculous. You go girl!
November 19, 2008
Things are going pretty slow. Kristi just got wheeled away and we got at least 2hrs to wait. She watched a river runs through it while I got to eat. She was a bit hungry, thirsty and smoke deprived but still laughing. Thought I would share the Before picture of my sweet gals lovely neck. I don't suppose I'll be chewing on it any time soon.
UPDATE: Surgeon said it was an easy one to get out. Lymph nodes looked great so he left them behind.
UPDATE: She is trying to sleep, but they gotta keep bugging her. Nausea as usual. Once she metabolizes all the crap in her system, maybe she can keep something down. Thanks for stopping by Tammy! You got her to sit up and be human again. Thank you WiFi for something to do!
November 17, 2008
We spent the weekend processing deer, well Mark did anyway. I'd go into the kitchen every once in a while to give him a kiss. The kids both had sleepovers here, so we had four munchkins in the house from Saturday morning until late yesterday. One of Mark's buddies from high school was also here to hunt for the weekend, so our humble abode was a bustle of activity. Good for keeping my mind off of things.
I did a little art:
Happy Monday. And as our friend Sue would say, only 2 more stupid days.
November 14, 2008
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November 7, 2008
This year it should say "Caution Bad Football From Here to Ocean"
I am so not a football fan, but ya gotta admit this has been an especially bad year for the Washington teams. This post is for Timmy the human luge,, who cares more about this than we do, yet still hasn't paid his debt from his last Apple Cup wager. We do have pics we can share luge boy if you don't wanna pay up.
We know you appreciate the importance of the Apple Cup game for both teams to gain some grain of gratification from their pretty awful seasons. The only good news for us Cougs is that we are only in year 1 of rebuilding,, the Huskies are in year 4, right? And at least we aren’t the only division 1 team w/o a win. That would really suck. But I’m sure all 119 other teams had easier schedules than the Huskies. Salt in the wounds?? Sorry for the sucker punch,, I’m feeling frisky. The only team we beat was Portland High school , and that cost us two quarterbacks.
So ya wanna wager which sucky team will suck less? It might be the only competitive game of the year!
November 6, 2008
This is a picture of Mike that he appropriately self titled: Two occasionally bright objects.